Sew be it!

I have recently been engaging in some pretty crafty endeavors involving a sewing machine. I have been working on a quilt for baby nugget! I have not been a lone ranger in this project though, my mother is my partner in craft and has done the bulk of the sewing and helped me see my idea and design come to be! Here are some sneak peeks of our little quilt top!

(our theme for baby is circus, so we wanted something bright and fun!)

(I am obsessed with these little animals on this fabric)

Now that we have begun this project it has definitely made me wet my appetite for sewing projects! We have another little baby blanky project lined up when we finish this one and then I have been dying to work on making some adorable summertime maternity dresses. It feels good to be productive and have a few little things planned to work on!

green mansion

This past week has been extremely exhausting, thanks to the constant packing and and gradual hauling of all my various possessions to my new home, My Nanny's house! We are having to wait till the current tenants move out of her basement apartment till the end of the month before I can really get settled but in the mean time I am having a sleepover for the next three weeks in my mommy's room. Even though I am in a sort of limbo till I can get my own personal space I am so blessed and happy to be here, this has been my haven and home for many years before I moved out of state for the last 7 years and I always feel at peace here. My Nanny lives in a very urban area but you would never guess it, the street that we live on and her house are surrounded by giant oak and pine trees that have been here for hundreds of years! In fact she named her estate "Knotty Pines". The view from my mothers art studio/computer room is of a lush green forest, and we call this forest our Green Mansion. 

(this was taken yesterday during a huge thunderstorm, everything just looked so green and lush!)

(i wanted a shot showing my view through the window since it is old and creepy looking ha)

I wish I had a better camera than my ancient iphone one so I could take pictures that better represent this beauty I get to see everyday, but I do have to say these don't look to shab! 

realistic goals

As I may have mentioned a few times in the last few days, yesterday was my birthday, a wonderful one I might add. There is nothing like being surrounded by family while you attempt to put yourself into a sugar coma while ingesting all the sweets and soda you can muster, after all you only get this excuse once a year! Besides the sweet treats and family gatherings birthdays are a great time to reflect on the past year and make goals for the next. Shall we visit last years goals? Why, yes, we shall! 

1) Paint a picture every week, so basically i need to have 52 painting by my next birthday

2) get big fake lumps of silicone inserted in my chest (yes its a shallow and maybe tacky but I WANT IT!)

3) go "glamping" in my backyard

4) learn french (well beyond saying tres and oui oui!)

5) pick a stinking color to paint my freaking apartment and just do it! 

6) keep my apartment spotless (right now i am afraid it looks like an episode of hoarders, its very embarrassing actually)

7) do a food challenge, like eat the worlds largest hamburger or something.

8) what i really really really want to do is go on a few weekend trips to some of my surrounding southern cities like Savannah, New Orleans, and Key West.

9) finally get started in roller derby 

While none of the are unrealistic goals (except for maybe getting breast implants, but i still want them dangit!) I can honestly say I did not accomplish a single one of these things on this list. Shame on my lazy self! Even though I failed at doing last years list I feel a little more stable and slightly more wise this year so I believe i will make an attempt at another set of goals. Here we gooo!

1) Try to make my new apartment a charming and cozy haven for me and baby nugget.

2) Instead of wearing p.j. pants and t-shirts all day and night, get up, get dressed, be fabulous!

3) Dust off the sewing machine and actually use it once in awhile!

4) I still want to go glamping, and now that I have some outdoorsy friends I feel this is more of a likelihood.

5) Cook for my family at least a few times a month (And make it a recipe I have never cooked before)

6) Go creek swimming while the weather is gorgeous!

7) Meditate daily and give thanks for all I have and will accomplish!

I think these are simple and do-able "goals" and if I am not able to mark them all off by next year then there is no hope for me! I do have confidence though that I be able to do these and possibly add more to the list throughout the year! Wish me luck! 

Again!!?

Well folks being the gypsy that I am, today is moving day. With this move I will have lived in three totally separate places in the last twelve months, which is insane! Luckily this move I am only having to move about 15 miles from where I currently am, and it just so happens to be with my mommy and I am excited about that especially since I'm expecting the little nugget and will need her more than ever. 

my madre and I in January for my nanny's bday.

(and yes that is a 1980's sequin dress, I will make a whole post dedicated to it)

Leggo my Eggo!

My birthday is coming up in about t-minus two days! let the count down begin for the big two-six! June 8th has always been my favorite holiday, because lets face it, I am a huge narcissist. I love love LOVE being the center of attention! I know your thinking "geez what a brat" (which i am, so get over it) I really cant help that  I am this way because I am the very definition of of Gemini. If you were to go into most books about astrology and turn to the Gemini section you would basically see a photo album of me and my high-jinks. This explains my inconstant blog posting, emotional decision making, self centered attitude, and inability to finish one project, buuuuuttttt I am not a lost cause! I promise! I feel like this is the year that I am going to triumph and grow up, in fact I know it, because (here's the bombshell) Im PREGNANT! yep, my eggo is preggo!

(this is when the nugget was 8 weeks, now it is 14 weeks)

Before your like "wow, call DHR, or 911, this unstable lady is gonna be in charge of birthing and raising another human life?!!" I am not that bad! Even though the circumstances may not meet the general public's standards, but you know that's okay because life isn't perfect. This chance to have a little human to snuggle and make blanket forts with lights up my very existence.

Sometimes I feel like people try to tell single women with children that they can't pursue their dreams, joy, or relationships, and excuse my language but that is total crap! I know the road ahead of me is not going to be paved with platinum and diamonds, in fact it will probably be paved with raging diarrhea, mushrooms, and raw onions. (things that are gross, if i must clarify) So basically life WILL be very hard, BUT every triumph I experience will be with my little nugget in my arms. That in itself is a triumph!

green eyed monster

So lovelies,
everything and nothing has changed since the short time I have been back in Alabama. I still have a job that i don't really care for, although the people I work with have certainly grown on me, we have quite the bunch of characters. Pretty much everybody is out of their mind crazy and that suits me just fine. I have tried to look for other work had a few prospects but nothing came to be, which leads me to the title of this post. I have been wallowing in a bit of self pity since i have moved back home, it got to be kind of disheartening to see the majority of people i had gone to school with at much further along with their life than i was, it seemed they all have either finished school, started "big kid" jobs, been successfully married for longer than a year, most of them have at least three kids (no joke)............so there you go i felt insecure and inadequate...and jealous. I have literally sat down and cried many times kicking myself for the journey i have taken myself on to become such a "looser". Thankfully I have such a wonderful family that know exactly how to give my motivation and ego the little pushes i need to carry on and put my big girl panties on,get out of my sweatpants (well actually they stay on), take a shower, wipe the runny mascara off, put the icecream back in the freezer, and rule the world! I finally have an opportunity to pursue my dreams while surrounded by my precious support group. Even though my path might not be as traditional as other people i know i actually prefer it that way. Once you realize that you don't even really want the things that you're jealous of and all that you ever wanted was to be successful doing what you love, then that my friends is a very good thing. I guess you could call this my Scarlet O'hara moment, before you all I swear that no matter what I have to do, the whole world be danged, I am going to succeed at what i put my hand to. So there!

long time no blog

Hello my darlings,
I am sorry i am such a naughty blogger and never update, but i have been incredibly busy the last month. Since my last post i have officially moved to Alabama! Although it was a bit of a bumpy ride getting here, I didn't know where i was going to be living until about 5 days before i was set to move. I had two living situations fall through, but as they say, it all worked out for the best! My cousin needed a roomie since she had just bought the cutest 1920's bungalow, i love this house! my bedroom is bigger than my last apartment, seriously, no joking here. The neighborhood is sort of in the middle of revitalization, which means it is like 2 blocks from the "ghetto" haha. That being said i really enjoy my neighborhood, i love the diversity, i love all of its little quirks. I love stalking my family and making them hang out with me :-) i actually get to eat dinner with them, and just pop in because im in the neighborhood, snuggle with my mommy. Its perfect! The only thing i haaaaaaaaaate is my job. yup. I hate it. Its really unfortunate because it is the same brand that i worked for before, but it is a different management company so they way it is run is really frustrating. I am currently in the process of searching for a new jobby. I have already applied to another establishment and am crossing my fingers i get it! If i do i will share what it is, it is slightly naughty and lots of fun, that is the only hint i am giving now. so stay tuned folks.